Today, for the first time in a really long time I knelt down to pray. Over the past few months it seemed like I forgot how soothing it was to the soul. I never prayed before I went to sleep, I didn't pray on my knees when I woke up. I would always skip right over it, like it was a CD or something. The CD would play but when it came to a song that I didn't like, all it took was one single act to skip right over it and go right on to the next. But, that's what I did, never cared too much about praying on my knees.
My father called the family down from upstairs, as we each gathered in the hallway, we walked closer to the distant voice we heard coming from the back room. He called us into the master bedroom, got down on his knees and said "we need to pray". As I hesitated, for a second, a cover of amazement sheltered over my body and I dropped to my knees. As I closed my eyes to the prayer, I felt relieved, so relaxed, It felt like I was being held, everything was comfortable again. I realized that I had been gone from prayer for so long, so long that I had forgotten about that peace it brings not only to pray, but praying on my knees. I knelt there, with my body hunched over on the bed. My elbows propped me up while my hands were covering my face. I stayed there, humbled, attracted, and in pity. I mumbled, I'm sorry over and over again. I was going lost, and Christ voice attracts. God, I need you, I'm nothing without you, bring me back to you, If I don't make it through, I need you. I love you
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Thursday, June 30, 2011
Back on my Knees
My name is Br. Vincent Mary Carrasco, my friends call me Vinny. I graduated with a Bachelors in Theology and currently in my first year of temporary vows in formation with the Capuchin Franciscan province of Mid-America studying at St. John Vianney Seminary. I enjoy blogging and bringing out the greater message and bigger picture in life. I have always had a passion for helping those people who have no one to help them. One of my favorite things is seeing someone joyful and happy because of the work or joy that we bring. In my experiences, I give catholic insight, prayers, reflections and thinking that help me grow in my own faith. I hope you enjoy it.